title and figure: The Black Parade, My Chemical Romance, 2006 |
X-Men Vol. 143...he brought it on himself |
Joshua Tree: Take only photos, leave only footprints
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NEVER take driftwood from the Olympic Peninsula, a pumice pebble from the billions of tons surrounding Mt. St. Helen's. Lift not a single chip of petrified wood from the thousands of acres of Arizona desert, even pine cones, though they grow a meter long, must be left where they fall in San Jacinto, because, friends, these areas are environmentally sensitive, delicately balanced, and finite. They just don't recuperate from humans. And humans can certainly wreak amazing havoc for their size.
see the blue t-shirt way back there? that's not bigfoot. it's a guy dumping his yard waste |
But my neighborhood, Subdivision X, is not Mono Lake, ok? Behind the lovely, pesticide coated, mowed-within-an-inch-of-its-life landscaped verge, Subdivision X has tree breaks. These "community spaces" average 50 feet wide and mostly they separate culdesacs. They are used by humans to collect yard waste, dog poop, clay scraped from tennis courts, teenage droppings, utility boxes, and beer bottles. True, some of them have smooth, blacktop paths, not skating surfaces, unfortunately, but great for walks. If you confine your gaze to 10 feet on either side, or look to the tree tops, these are pretty, forested areas, especially in summer, when all the flora blooms up. The true colors of these unfortunate spaces become exposed in winter when they look like a stretch of highway reserved for mandatory community service weekends. They're a tangled mess, and all that indiscriminate dumping forces untimely decay
8"Tiger Slug...lives in my backyard; plenty of nice food there, tons of rotting leaves, no empty beer bottles |
a baby gecko dragon!! (just kidding, it's a root but it's still attached so of course I wouldn't take it. |
You can't just assimilate every species you come across and plop it into your collective, because then you end up like Kurt Cobain:
Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals I've trapped
Have all become my pets
Despite this rationale, I'm west coast liberal treehugging indoctrinated and I really struggle with this.
It's not stupid. Plus, it costs every shred of my dignity and peace of mind.
Bella hunts squirrel and rot |
It's 9am, 87 degrees, 60% humidity, the air is whining with mosquitos. I don elbow length gloves, sweats, tall rubber boots; carry a camera, a small shovel and a bent-to-shreds disposable turkey roasting pan. Oh yeah, I have a badly sprained foot. All this self-inflicted misery is bait for those Demons. I bring Bella. She weighs 72% what I do and pulls me merrily along with twice as many legs working and carries only a poop sack. She has eaten. I've not even had a banana yet.
I park at the school. The teachers are having a pre-year thing; their hair is freshly coiffed, they've been to the beach, they wear sneakers and shorts. I've been unable to shower recently due to severe ennui. I stride past them into the woods as if I am not a freak. I do not make eye contact, because--and this is good general advice--you MUST believe that if you close your eyes and cover your ears, you are completely invisible.
I wedge up the log. Nothing is living under it; it's just a rotting piece of wood. Despite that fact, I lug the nasty, crumbling 25 pound limb to my car, totting all my stuff and being tugged by a leash. I grunt right past the nice, clean ladies who decorate their yards with rainbow metal twirly things, and probably never have to tell themselves to please, shut up already and just keep climbing.
I'm dirty, exhausted, starving, under attack by my conscience, and pissed off at my dog.
i have showered and justified myself, that's why I'm happy |
I'm keeping this dead thing.
And, besides, no one here gives a flip. I have to point out every gnome, monster, weathered cliff face, and dancer that IS this rot. If I wrench these creatures free and set them a lovely environment with all the bugs, weeds, birds, and appreciation they can handle, then I am Freeman Lowell.
Bruce Dern in Silent Running, he took off into space with the last of Earth's completely unappreciated trees and 2 pre-R2 drones |
Herbert West, Miskatonic University: founding father of preservation |
Wait...maybe I'm Mr. West! These dead things become reanimated as living garden art. I MUST be allowed to continue! I will give the wood a second chance to contribute to the living world and I alone will defeat rot!
I'm finally clean and home, everything's quiet inside the psycho pit, then Alex says,"You got another piece of wood? Don't you have enough stuff back there?" Dammit. Now, I'm forced to examine my motives, the reality of my space limitations, my responsibility to Nature, and my sanity. Can't I just go la-dee-da along with my whims and toss back into the woods whatever doesn't work?
I'm finally clean and home, everything's quiet inside the psycho pit, then Alex says,"You got another piece of wood? Don't you have enough stuff back there?" Dammit. Now, I'm forced to examine my motives, the reality of my space limitations, my responsibility to Nature, and my sanity. Can't I just go la-dee-da along with my whims and toss back into the woods whatever doesn't work?
Hitchcock 1960, waste not, want not |
I know it's unseemly, but consider taxidermy. My first job after UCI was at an eccentric Laguna Beach art gallery. For months, we kept a courageously stuffed 6 foot tall peacock in the window. The indignation we fended!! Come on, people! OBVIOUSLY it is rude and sinful to kill something and stuff it merely for decor. But that gorgeous bird lived its full life in a beautiful park, bred several times (probably with different hens), was treated like the king he was, and just like you and I and every tree will, he inevitably died. OH MY GOD,WE DISPLAYED HIS LOVELY PURPLE CORPSE. Ok, maybe a coyote missed a meal, but I think they prefer left-over KFC anyway.
(On the other hand, my classmate had a purse made from her cat's pelt, and she used the exact same logic. That takes too much philosophizing just now, but I'm happy to discuss this topic or any other Norman Bates related stuff.)
Here's something really cool...we lived in Oregon for a summer, and the Fish and Game patrol are obligated to collect every skeleton and feather that falls to keep idiots from poaching animals for their skins. Yep. people do that, apparently. One of the rangers toured us through a warehouse full of bones, disembodied wings, unhatched eggs, eagle feathers, and the like. He gave me this bobcat skull as a parting gift, and I treasure it.
what difference does it make if the Oregon soil had 2 fewer ounces of calcium that year? stuff disinegrates every day |
graciously bowing gnome or pig's head emerging? |
....But not on my watch, baby.
Cthulhu climbs over a rock wall |
dancing creature looks gracefully backwards |
scary ghost stick |
venerable root; the birds love this one |
a flame installed and beautiful |
What confuses me is that no one I've met seems to care, and it rather offends me, even though I skulk around about it. Everyone that forces me by convention to speak to them on the trail, retired officers, Florida hippie transplants, pet walkers, teenagers, all think it's unremarkable, and are really hard pressed to see the beauty in the booty. Some even offer to help me carry stuff back to my car.
So, are my neighbors insensitive destroyers and usurpers, or am I just a goofball? Think about it. If they don't struggle with this issue on my level of conscience, even if I'm slightly overboard, what happens if they end up in Yellowstone? My god there's some awesome rot there.